Nak memulakan ayat pun dah tak tahu macam mana,
Sambil tengok Boboiboy, sambil tu jari jemari ni gigih menaip satu persatu perkataan untuk entry kali ni. Haihhh, susah betul nak cari kekuatan nak update blog. Sebabnya bila ada masa lapang, banyak pulak benda aku nak buat especially pergi merayap sana sini. Baru je 2 hari lepas RM1000 melayang repair kereta. Sob sob sob!!! First time kereta breakdown kat tengah jalan, menggelabah jugak kejap sebab sorang2 plus dah almost midnight pulak tu. Nasib baik masa breakdown, kereta tengah berhenti kat traffic light, tapi bila lampu dah tukar hijau, mulalah kereta2 belakang pulak yang menggelabah hon hon sana sini walaupun dah turn on hazard light. Plan nak melepak dengan cousin pun tukar jadi misi membantu, meneman sampai semua settle. Thanks to my Abah yang sanggup datang dari Putrajaya ke Bangsar tengah malam buta nak bantu anak dia. He is my Superhero!! Ada jugak terdetik kejap dalam hati, kalau ada boyfriend, tak payah aku susahkan Abah aku, kesian kat dia. Hmmmm..
Sambung cerita,
Lepas family dia balik ke Dubai, takde apa yang berubah pun. Sentap tu tetap ada tapi harapan tu tak pernah hilang. Still hoping for a good thing to happen, plus cara dia sendiri pun buat orang mengharap tapi tu semua aku tak pernah suarakan, simpan sendiri2 je. Bila kawan-kawan aku tanya dia bila nak kahwin, dengan confident dan yakin dia jawab, "
Inshallah, June next year" which is he mean 2014. If you guys were in my shoes, apa korang rasa, mesti macam teruja kan bila a person that you really want to live with saying that. Tapi entahlah, masa dia jawab macam tu dekat kawan-kawan aku, aku rasa semacam. Sebab bila dengan aku, dia bukan nak cakap sangat about all the marriage thingy but suddenly with my friends selamba badak je cakap macam tu. But I did tegur dia, aku tanya dia kenapa pergi cakap dengan semua orang just like it was very sure while u actually not. If benda tu tak jadi nanti siapa yang malu and im the one who have to answer it to everyone. Women always have a strong sense untuk benda2 yang tak best ni. Yeah, for no reason aku blast dia macam tu cause for no reason I have strong sense that it will not happen as he mentioned. Dia tak cakap banyak bila aku cakap macam tu, he just only agree with that and apology.
His career,
He'd really enjoy working as Public Relation Officer in his Embassy. He loved his job so much, so committed, sebab memang tu impian dia and his life mission and vision is to be like his father, to be a Consular in Embassy. That's why dia kuat semangat nak sambung PhD, plus so far dia je yang dalam family ada highest education, and agak menjadi kesayangan dan kebanggaan ayah dia. But kalau life tak diuji, itu bukan dipanggil life kan? One day, Ambassador dekat Embassy dia kena transfer to somewhere else so they bringing new Ambassador to replace. But things didnt go well, dia tak baik dengan diplomat baru ni, it was not from him but it from the new diplomat. Normal la kan, dalam mana2 company, private or government sector mesti ada main politics, so thats what that new diplomat tu buat. He tried to bring all his people into that embassy and trying to kicking out semua orang2 lama especially yang baik dengan diplomat lama tu, and he one of the victim. Satu persatu orang kena, setiap hari diplomat tu cari salah orang, tapi si dia ni still dapat bertahan dekat embassy tu and fight for the right. Kerja macam biasa, tapi setiap hari dia mengadu stress sebab being pushed this and that, semua kerja pun ada je yang tak kena, itu silap ini silap. But he so determined, so he fight whatever he can. But day by day things are getting worst, dia punya pressure bertambah2 and bergelora dia punya marah dekat Diplomat baru tu. Until one day, Diplomat tu cakap dia dicutikan for a certain period until the investigation done. This part aku tak faham sangat apa masalah sebenar, sebab dia pun tak boleh nak reveal sangat sebab Private & Confidential, embassy punya cerita. Mula-mula kata dicutikan, tapi yang aku tengok macam kena suspended sebab dia tak boleh pergi kerja pun and gaji dia pun kena hold. Sebab dari minggu, jadi berbulan-bulan dia tak pergi kerja, walaupun macam tu dia tetap fight by bringing this thing to his father, then his father bring this issue to more higher authority.
Isi masa lapang,
Sementara menunggu result from Embassy, dia pun mengorak langkah to start his study for PhD, pergi jumpa supervisor dia to discuss pasal tajuk research and so on. One thing, even though dia stress yang sangat teruk, tapi dia still did his best to make me happy. So, most of his day dia banyak pergi buat consultation dengan supervisor dia, kuat semangat dia walaupun dilanda masalah. Once he settle his session dengan supervisor dia, dia akan chat dengan aku mintak pendapat aku untuk topic for his research. Setiap hari aku pun akan gigih memerah otak macam aku yang PhD tu. Ngeh ngeh ngeh!! Interesting, tapi untuk diri sambung study tu, minta maaf sangatttt cause i just cant. Aku dah malas, nak faham segala theory and all that, sangat dah tak minat. Balik cerita dia, setiap hari kitorang akan bincang and find the best topic for his research and finally i got an idea, aku suruh dia buat research about perbezaan in human resource between his country and Malaysia, something like that. Dia terus suka, refer to his Supervisor and the topic for his research ON. Aku rasa, supposed nanti PhD tu belong to me, haahaha!!! Topic accepted, then proceed to write a proposal pulak. Pun sama mintak tolong to give idea on giving an introduction and an explanation for proposal, sekali jadi spelling and grammar checker untuk dia. So setiap hari, once dia update proposal dia, dia akan email kat aku to check macam aku pulak supervisor dia. After all the hard time, proposal submitted and accepted. Yeay!
Embassy story,
Aku rasa benda tu macam never ending story, aku nak tanya dia banyak kali pasal update terbaru pun tak berani sangat. Kalau jumpa dia pun, tengok muka pun serabut je, daripada sebelum tu tak simpan jambang, ada pulak jambang sikit, new style katanya. Just one thing this dia bagitahu, ayah dia dah pesan, dia kena standby from now sebab bila2 masa je dia kena balik Dubai untuk settle benda ni semua. Dengar je macam tu, pahamla aku kan. Againnnnn, kena berjauhan lagi just tak tahu bila je. Kena selalu standby and tunggu call je. March 2014, aku and the geng plan nak pergi Pulau Mabul on October sebab Airasia ada buat promo tiket. Aku ajak dia, tapi he was like 50-50 sebab macam dia cakap la, anytime je dia kena balik Dubai, tapi memandangkan tiket murah je RM100 return so aku belikan jugak untuk dia, jadi tak jadi itu kemudian cerita. Setiap hari aku resah gelisah bila yang dia kena balik sana, setiap hari jugak la aku tanya dia either ayah dia dah call ke belum. Huhuhu!! Dia pun dah makin down sebab tak nampak solution and tak tahu apa future dia dekat Embassy tu. So again, lepas buat plan pergi Pulau Mabul, aku and the geng plan suka2 nak pergi main ATV dekat Kemensah, same thing, aku ajak dia jugak and same thing dia tak berani nak promise to join sebab takut anything. Dia suruh aku proceed with all the deposit, so kalau takde apa2, dia akan join on the day nak pergi tu. At the beginning tu aku macam emo jugak sebab aku fikir aku just nak have fun before dia balik Dubai,but then fahamla aku kalau dia janji and last minute cancel lagi tak best.
13 April 2014,
Kitorang pergi main ATV and he joined!!! Happynya aku masa tu, entahlah, kalau boleh semua benda yang aku buat, aku nak dia ada. Tapi, yang ATV ni aku ajak dia sebab aku nak tolong dia release stress daripada duduk rumah sakit hati tunggu result and another thing nak have fun sebelum dia balik Dubai. Tu lah, dia tak pernah kecewakan aku and apa saje yang wish dia selalu akan cuba tunaikan. Dalam enjoy2 dia tu still nampak muka serabut dia, kesian dia tapi aku pulak dalam enjoy2 aku sedih pulak nanti dia nak kena balik Dubai.
14 April 2015,
Sehari lepas main ATV, tengahari tu dia call bagitahu ayah dia dah beli tiket flight on that day departure midnight. Terkedu aku dengar, aku nak hantar dia pergi airport dia tak bagi sebab dia tak nak aku balik malam2 buta sorang2 nanti. Nothing else to say, sedih sangat tapi relakan je. Just aku mintak dengan dia, update aku bila dah sampai airport, sebelum depart and masa dah sampai Dubai nanti and he really kept his promises.
15 April 2015,
"Sayang, i'm arrived in Dubai!"
~Then, begin another new life chapter that I never expect~
